...You need calm down have a good talk with your husband.Same time,review if you ignored him specially after you have 2 kids. Kids is important .It's hard for women play well balanced among so many roles -wife, mum,employee ,daughter,daughter-in-law...It is extreamly harder for us chinese women than western women because well knowen reasons . I hope you try your best to save your marriage first . Then plan your life .
Do be strong wheather you can or not save your marriage. I wish you are happy, just be yourself .